I'm creating this thread with the intention of helping some of us grieve with the tragedy of Kentaro Miura's death. To those who can’t cope or even bring themselves to cry when they know how sad they are, how much was lost with his death, but are just in disbelief or apathetic. Since this is what happened to me I hope this can help someone else.
So we can express our feelings of sadness and loss with thoughts, reflections or moments from the manga that break the hold of apathy or vagueness of why this is such a tragedy. Like when Schierke finally broke down at the beach with Guts, finally seeing the ocean and remembering Flora, she finally pushed through apathy and embraced the sadness of her teacher’s death.
Don’t know if this is mutual feeling but since reading the news i was just numb, apathetic, feeling mostly anger, and disbelief but i simply could not bring myself to cry. I was thinking. This can't be, there are no words to describe how he and his work are important to me. Why can’t I express my sadness with not even a single tear? I felt like I was betraying Miura.
I think that is just basically not being able to properly cope with his death. Since we don’t know Miura in person, we can relate with him through his art, there are only a few ways of remembering him, but it felt like going back to the manga would be too much and I was just so numbed down, I couldn’t find myself to read a single panel.
But reflecting on Berserk while coming back from work, i remembered a moment from the Manga that always really resonated with me, that in dark parts of my life i always came back. It was the final interactions between Guts and Jill, how he told her to go back to her own battlefield.
How he inspired her, even when she bore witness to all the horrific events that happened in Misty Valley, all the death and despair. That encounter with Guts in a cave, him just barely recovering from wounds and his primal urge for violence and vengeance. He embraced her and comforted her, and was able to change her, as a better person.
I’m not good at analyzing and dissecting art but remembering that moment and rereading it (Vol.16, pages ~124-140~. The last 16 pages of the Conviction Arc) was the moment I when all my emotions aligned, and I could finally cry, cry a lot. it was very cathartic, I released all the negative feelings inside of me, all the anger i felt subsided, and I was left with a bittersweet sadness. The beautiful kind of sadness, it hurts very much but it hurts because what you lost is something truly special.
Crying is good for coping with grief, but sometimes our psychology is so messed from grief that we cant even bring ourselves to do that. There’s also the vagueness that is left when you lose someone, be it a friend, a partner, a relative. But then you see a picture of them, hear a song, a scent that reminds of you of them.
From Miura, all that we have to remember is his manga, the anime, the soundtracks.
As Dr. Hiluluk said in One Piece, “A man dies when he is forgotten” So let’s not feel apathetic, lets share our grief with each other with moments that can help those who cant manage to cope or express their sadness with the basic reaction of crying, or who cant remember why Berserk meant so much.
Lets share the reflections about him and his life, his work. If you couldn’t cry with just knowing he died, lets share what finally broke you. Lets share the moments from the manga that really make you miss him. I know every panel is a masterpiece but what will you take from it for your whole life and what made the realization that he passed away really, really sink in.
I made this thread with the intent to help those who cant cope, who are just in denial, disbelief and like me couldn’t cry or felt apathetic and felt that this was some sort of betrayal. Everyone grieves differently, If the thread is in bad taste or too soon, please delete it. My intention is only to share the experience I felt after bawling my eyes out by reading the final pages of the conviction arc, the feeling that I was Honoring Miura by being able to express my sadness, that I was remembering him, past the denial and disbelief. Finally finding solace. I will always love Berserk
So we can express our feelings of sadness and loss with thoughts, reflections or moments from the manga that break the hold of apathy or vagueness of why this is such a tragedy. Like when Schierke finally broke down at the beach with Guts, finally seeing the ocean and remembering Flora, she finally pushed through apathy and embraced the sadness of her teacher’s death.
Don’t know if this is mutual feeling but since reading the news i was just numb, apathetic, feeling mostly anger, and disbelief but i simply could not bring myself to cry. I was thinking. This can't be, there are no words to describe how he and his work are important to me. Why can’t I express my sadness with not even a single tear? I felt like I was betraying Miura.
I think that is just basically not being able to properly cope with his death. Since we don’t know Miura in person, we can relate with him through his art, there are only a few ways of remembering him, but it felt like going back to the manga would be too much and I was just so numbed down, I couldn’t find myself to read a single panel.
But reflecting on Berserk while coming back from work, i remembered a moment from the Manga that always really resonated with me, that in dark parts of my life i always came back. It was the final interactions between Guts and Jill, how he told her to go back to her own battlefield.
How he inspired her, even when she bore witness to all the horrific events that happened in Misty Valley, all the death and despair. That encounter with Guts in a cave, him just barely recovering from wounds and his primal urge for violence and vengeance. He embraced her and comforted her, and was able to change her, as a better person.
I’m not good at analyzing and dissecting art but remembering that moment and rereading it (Vol.16, pages ~124-140~. The last 16 pages of the Conviction Arc) was the moment I when all my emotions aligned, and I could finally cry, cry a lot. it was very cathartic, I released all the negative feelings inside of me, all the anger i felt subsided, and I was left with a bittersweet sadness. The beautiful kind of sadness, it hurts very much but it hurts because what you lost is something truly special.
Crying is good for coping with grief, but sometimes our psychology is so messed from grief that we cant even bring ourselves to do that. There’s also the vagueness that is left when you lose someone, be it a friend, a partner, a relative. But then you see a picture of them, hear a song, a scent that reminds of you of them.
From Miura, all that we have to remember is his manga, the anime, the soundtracks.
As Dr. Hiluluk said in One Piece, “A man dies when he is forgotten” So let’s not feel apathetic, lets share our grief with each other with moments that can help those who cant manage to cope or express their sadness with the basic reaction of crying, or who cant remember why Berserk meant so much.
Lets share the reflections about him and his life, his work. If you couldn’t cry with just knowing he died, lets share what finally broke you. Lets share the moments from the manga that really make you miss him. I know every panel is a masterpiece but what will you take from it for your whole life and what made the realization that he passed away really, really sink in.
I made this thread with the intent to help those who cant cope, who are just in denial, disbelief and like me couldn’t cry or felt apathetic and felt that this was some sort of betrayal. Everyone grieves differently, If the thread is in bad taste or too soon, please delete it. My intention is only to share the experience I felt after bawling my eyes out by reading the final pages of the conviction arc, the feeling that I was Honoring Miura by being able to express my sadness, that I was remembering him, past the denial and disbelief. Finally finding solace. I will always love Berserk
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